Birds Born in a Cage…

Mark Passio and Jodorowskybirdsfly

I saw the most marvelous meme with a quote from one of my greatest idols, Alejandro Jodorowsky, the awesome genius who created El Topo, my absolute favorite film. I love this meme. “Birds born in a cage think flying is an illness.” How wonderful that this great man, Alejandro Jodorowsky, made such an observation. But the first sight I had of that meme, was on the cover of a video by one Mark Passio and it’s all about psychopaths. I can see applying Jodorowsky’s insight to the subject of psychopathy. Yes, the “normal” folk think our “flying” is an illness. They do, indeed. The freedom from conscience we enjoy is analogous to flying. The metaphor works very well.

birdsthinkI found it odd that Mark Passio could choose this meme for his video which is a total statement of hatred for psychopaths. How he interprets this quote is a mystery to me. I have seen the video several times and there is no explanation. Never-the-less, the video has many “interesting” ideas to be explored. Mr. Passio says, as does Thomas Sheridan, that psychopaths are not even human. We belong to another species. How members of a separate species manage to breed and get born to human beings is a biological mystery that Passio and Thomas have yet to unravel.

jodorowsky_birds1We are “animals.” The fact that humans are also a species in the animal kingdom seems to elude our good man. But he seems to be one of what I will call a “specist.” You know what a “racist” is. So the meaning of this term should be obvious. White people tend to be prone to racism as the dominant race, many whites believe that they should rule over lesser “races.” Similarly, many humans believe humanity is the non plus ultra of existence. Human life is special. It’s in a separate category from all lesser species. They are animals. Just calling someone an “animal” is condemnation enough. Specism is an ideology that has enabled so-called empathetic humans to subject other animals to unspeakable cruelty. That cruelty has been well documented elsewhere. I won’t belabor my point.

We psychopaths are, therefore, not human beings. We are animals, and, therefore, inferior. Furthermore, we are not even mammals. We are some kind of reptile. (Makes it even more problematic how we manage to breed with humans.)

I wrote a comment under his video which was responded to by a human:

You, Mark Passio, are a bird born in a cage and you think my flying is an illness. And all human beings are animals. We are just a species in the natural order. Don’t be a human supremacist.

Richard T. Minio

+Frances Nowve When he says ‘animal’, he’s associating the psychopath’s impulsive behavior with the instincts of an animal. So when you “fly”, you’ll probably be flying to heaven after you get the death sentence for some horrid crime you committed. Now go ahead and keep flying

Frances Nowve

Many animals are patient and stealthy, not impulsive. I will be happy to fly to heaven when my time comes. I will fly as a free bird beyond the comprehension of those who spent their lives in cages. But I don’t think they give the death sentence anymore.
Confronting these absurdities on a You-Tube thread isn’t enough for me anymore. I created this blog post in order to share and explore my foray into the madness of these kinds of haters.
Another video by Mark Passio Psychopathy & Characteristics of Psychopaths bangs on and on about our lack of humanity. Why, we would do anything and I do mean anything to another person because we don’t respect human rights. But, if we are not human, and Passio emphasizes that we truly are not human, we don’t have human rights. So, this asshole would disregard our rights and feel entitled. A perfect example of how these “nice,” human non-psychopaths can talk themselves into the same enormities they accuse us of committing.
Passio’s video includes a display of a picture of Hitler with a quote that says the needs of nazissociety must come before the needs of the individual. And, next to it, a picture of Hillary Clinton with a quote saying pretty much the same thing. The implication is that Hillary is just like Hitler. Trump couldn’t have put it better. The irony is that putting the individual over the needs of society is what people with ASPD do. So where is this genius coming from? Why condemn us for putting ourselves before society when he so violently disagrees with Hitler and Hillary when they try to put society first.
He also speculates that society may, some day, find a way to alter our brains against our will. Why not? They do all sorts of horrid scientific experiments on animals and Passio has repeated many times that we are “animals.”
When M.E. Thomas speculates that some day society may put us into “sociopath’s only methomgulags,” it sounds far-fetched. But listening to this fool makes it all sound believable. One of my blog posts is called Psychopaths: The Jews of Today. The title kind of seems whiny to me, even though I am the one who wrote it. However, listening to Mark Passio, the title of that post sounds all too accurate.

Mark Passio

markpassioHaving written the above, my curiosity was still not satisfied so I continued to explore Mr. Passio’s world, aside from his rantings about psychopaths. What I gathered is that Mr. Passio is a flaming narcissist with a whole, elaborate socio-economic philosophy which he worships as much as Christians worship their bible. I should have realized when I noticed he has “the great work” after his name. The Great Work is an occult concept of a total spiritual achievement, equivalent to what enlightenment means to Hindus and Buddhists.

youmightbeaI am watching a video called “Free Your Mind 4 2016 Unholy Feminine & Satanic Epi-Eugenics Part.” Before I could see Mr. Passio unveil his ideas, I had to listen to some fellow introducing him at length. In the course of the introduction, we were told that Mr. Passio said, “Feel free to be offended.” That’s a red flag for me. Anyone can be offended. Do we really need to challenge them about it before we even “offend” them? He finally appeared and he went into a whole magilla about offense. The bottom line was that people who get offended by his ideas are reacting to their emotions. He, apparently, is free of emotion. He is pure truth. Furthermore, he abjured the audience to listen to the whole speech and make sure to see Part II as well. 

feministsAs he moved on, he assured us that he has a lot of respect for the female gender. Oh oh! Nobody who has to precede a speech that isn’t sexist needs to say that. Sure enough. He told us that there are two kinds of feminism. One is traditional, classical feminism which is good. And the other is “neo-feminism” which seeks to make women the rulers of men. Um, yeah. Sure. It’s not really very polite for a man to get involved in inner disputes in the women’s movement. They are outsiders. But this guy does more than just inject himself where he doesn’t belong. He is telling us what members of the movement think. And he is way off.

littlemanThis man has a website. What On Earth is Happening? He has a large presence on You-Tube. He will tell you all about Satanism, Epi-Eugenics and other conspiracies. Feel free to check it out. Here is the one I’m watching: Free Your Mind 4 2016 Unholy Feminine & Satanic Epi-Eugenics. I hope you find it interesting. The man who warns us that we are being manipulated is trying to manipulate us. He mixes some truth with some baloney. His repetitious exhortations, “YOU are under mind control,” warns me that he wants to tell me what to think. He is totally condescending to the public in general because they are too stupid to listen to him. What a narc!

Passio calls himself an anarchist. But his fulminations about what society needs to do to us marks him a fascist. His practical politics are not very progressive. He is one of those white men who resents feminists and non-whites who complain about what his kind has done to them. Boo Hoo! Poor white men. He is against socialism. He wants old fashioned capitalism (instead of crony capitalism) until we can get rid of government. (Then who’s going to force psycho-surgery on us without government?)

I have examined many haters on the internet but this man takes the prize. He is a walking pestilence.

I am Grandiose: Boast or Confession?

sam_vaknin.paginaSam Vaknin said, “Grandiosity is an inflated self-image. It is a divorce between reality and self-perception. An abyss. A gulf between a narcissists real life, real accomplishments, real talents, real skills, real everything and his perception of his accomplishments, talents, skills and everything else.” It is “constructed on an edifice of cognitive deficits.” But could anyone who really believes he is better at everything than he really is actually call himself “grandiose?” Wikipedia defines it as “an unrealistic sense of superiority—a sustained view of oneself as better than others that causes the narcissist to view others with disdain or as inferior—as well as to a sense of uniqueness: the belief that few others have anything in common with oneself and that one can only be understood by a few or very special people.” Since “unrealistic” is part of the definition, how could anyone who really believed his “accomplishments, talents or skills” were superior call his belief “grandiosity.” The word, itself, belies the possibility of being truly delusional.

megrandioseMy grandiosity has nothing to do with any delusion of being objectively better at any specific ability than other people. In fact, it has little to do with anything that can be objectively measured. I regard myself as far too unique to be compared to other people. It is a deep conviction of my own specialness. This conviction produces a rich euphoria that is beyond anyone’s touch. For that reason, I never feel the need to defend my conviction of uniqueness nor to prove it to others. What can uniqueness have to do with comparison anyway? I recognize grandiosity in others. I have no need to compete with them or to prove I am “better.” I see us as some sort of elite. Their grandiosity doesn’t detract from mine nor does mine detract from theirs. I was wearing my “I love being grandiose” t-shirt one day when a guy in the supermarket where I was shopping confided he had the same feeling. We happily recognized each other and rejoiced in this thing we shared and others knew nothing about.

Narcopalypse: WHY (we) MUST Come to The “Richard-Lidija-Sam Vaknin Destroy Narcissism” Seminar.

lidijaSam Vaknin is giving a seminar on destroying narcissism. He calls it a Narcopalypse. It will star Richard Grannon, Sam Vaknin and his wife, Lidija Rangelovska. Richard Grannon has made a video promoting it, saying “This is a very, very thorough course and it’s going to do some deep work. It’s never been done before and we don’t know if we’re ever going to do it again.” WOW! Sounds once in a lifetime. Sam “knows everything there is to know about the subject and guess what he wants to help. Why? Because that’s part of who he is. That’s part of his personality disorder.” So his narcissism makes him want to help. I wonder why other narcissists don’t want to help. No. They have done the harm which Sam and Richard want to help people recover from. Well, that’s marketing. Sam really cares about healing victims of his fellow narcs but it’s at a price. The entire two-day seminar costs 198 English pounds.


there is no god where I am

thestarWhat is the difference between Gnosis and Faith? A fellow blogger, ifonlymommy, asked me. “Wouldn’t you rather believe and be wrong ? These are just curiosities and never criticisms as that’s not who I am. I just find so much peace is my faith.” It seems that, at least in this case, the “peace” one gets from having faith is more important than truth. I have faith in many things, that I will draw my next breath, think my next thought. I don’t have faith in a “higher power.” I also don’t yearn for that kind of peace. Gnosis is an actual experience, direct knowledge. No matter how much I bond with others during my lifetime, I was be alone when I die. I mean, everyone is. People can be gathered around your bed. They can be stroking you, speaking to you. But they can’t go through that transition for you. By the same token, nobody can “know” reality for you. It is our responsibility to seek the truth as earnestly as we can. I can’t understand accepting other people’s prefabricated system of faith, in other words, religion, as “truth.” It actually seems a cop-out, a refusal to face the truth.

What does it mean to be “alone” in the universe. Responsibility. It can be scary. But it the fullest experience of life that I know.

Be Here Now, the title of Baba Ram Dass’ (Richard Alpert) book, is also the core of all spirituality. It has nothing to do with worshiping another spirit, “god,” for example. It is about standing still and being completely accepting of reality. When one is truly here now, there is no fear and there is no pain. Not that this is easy. But it is powerful.

justhappeningI have experimented with banishing pain. It started as mere curiosity. I thought, “Pain is a sensation. What is it about that sensation that makes it ‘bad’?” To find out, I focused on pain I was experiencing, trying to isolate the quality that made it averse. The more I focused, the further away the sensation seemed to move. In the end, I couldn’t feel the pain at all any more. I realized I had discovered a way to eliminate pain. But the concentration must be total. And I couldn’t allow myself to look forward to the pain going away. I had to be committed only to feeling the pain and being open to understanding the sensation and knowing why and if it was “bad.” It isn’t as easy as it sounds and I am not always in a mental state that allows me to do it. But, when I achieve this state of consciousness, it works.

Looking at what is actually happening, I realize that the magick is in my total acceptance of the moment. There must be no part of me that rejects the moment or tries to move away from it. And, from this understanding, I realize that all pain really is is the rejection of the moment. Running away from any experience, is an act of fear. When we run, the thing we are running from pursues us. We must stop short. Turn around and face the thing. That’s all there is to it. Being here now is the ultimate act of courage.

Talk about serendipity. I just saw Dave Asprey’s latest blog about “mindfulness” which, I realize, is exactly what I was talking about above.

The Center for Mindfulness at the University of Massachusetts describes it as:

“The intention to pay attention to each and every moment of our life, non-judgmentally.”

A key word there is “intention.” You see, mindfulness isn’t about perfection or reaching some artificial standard. It starts — and continues — with the simple daily decision that you want to become aware of what’s really going on inside you and around you. Once you’re firm in that intention, you just need to make an authentic effort to wake up to what is.

crowleyasanaI have practiced WICCA and Ceremonial Magick. But only in finding Chaos Magick did I realize what is at the bottom of all magick. It is focus. That’s all it is. The rituals and ceremonies are all engaged in for the purpose of achieving the right mental focus with which to work one’s will. Chaotes use a lot of asanas. Being absolutely still in mind and body puts one in the here and now. Of course, Aleister Crowley knew that. Chaotes didn’t just invent the practice. In fact, it’s really part of yoga. I tried it at work one time and suddenly was aware of waking up. I was the only awake person in a room full of slumbering others. It was an amazing experience.

English translation:

FOURTH MASTER: You want to fight me? How can you plan to do it? I don’t have a revolver.
He digs in the sand and pulls out an old rusty revolver that no longer works.
FOURTH MASTER: I traded my revolver for a butterfly net. You’ll have to fight me with your fists.
The Master assumes the comic posture of an oldtime boxer. He challenges El Topo.
FOURTH MASTER: Hit me. Hit me.
He pushes El Topo. El Topo is disconcerted. He decides to strike the old man. But he cannot land his punches. The Master dodges them with magical speed. El Topo becomes impatient. He tries some Karate blows. All of them miss the Master. Desperate, El Topo draws his gun and fires, as the Master picks up his butterfly net. The Master catches the bullet with his net and sends it whizzing back to El Topo. The bullet explodes near El Topo’s black boots. The Fourth Master laughs.
FOURTH MASTER: You see? My net is mightier than your bullets.
The Master stops laughing.
FOURTH MASTER: If you fire again, I’ll return your own bullet into your heart.
El Topo doesn’t know whether or not to believe him. He starts toward him. He tries to fire, but can’t. He knows he’s been defeated. He lets his revolver fall to the ground. The Fourth Master falls to his knees with El Topo.
FOURTH MASTER (gently): How could you possibly have won? I don’t fight. I have nothing. Even if you’d tricked me, you couldn’t have taken anything from me.
EL TOPO: Yes! I could have taken your life.
FOURTH MASTER: My life? It means nothing to me. I’ll show you.
He grabs El Topo’s revolver and shoots himself in the liver.
FOURTH MASTER (gaily): You lose!

Many people in the New Age Movement say, “I am God.” Grandiose? But if every is “god,” it’s not grandiose at all to include oneself in that statement. In Stranger in a Strange Land, Valentine makes that claim on behalf of everyone. Church of All Worlds, which takes Stranger as it’s bible, embraces that notion when every member says to each other, “Thou art God.” Those who have done acid instinctively understand and relate to it. Such a claim, grandiose or not, is anathema to the Abrahamic religions. In fact, it’s heresy. God is this other who is more virtuous and more powerful than people.

freefallingWhat does spirituality have to do with psychopathy? Many people think psychopaths cannot be truly spiritual. We are, as my mother said, “laws unto ourselves.” We don’t connect well with other people and we are out for ourselves. James Reynard, a fellow blogger, wrote, “Do I envy love and friendship? When I’m not busy convincing myself that love is a weakness (it totally is by the way, though that doesn’t mean it’s not worth having), I feel like the loneliest person in the world. I have friends – people I keep around due to aspects of their personality I enjoy – but obviously I can’t really connect with them properly. Sure we can share a joke, or a interest in something or other, or a stimulating conversation, but then they start talking about their feelings, and I’m reminded of what I don’t have.”  Yet, Kevin Dutton wrote a book called The Wisdom of Psychopaths. “Perhaps the one stand-alone feature of the psychopath, the ultimate ‘killer’ difference that distinguishes the psychopathic personality from the personalities of most ‘normal’ members of the population, is that psychopaths don’t give a damn what their fellow citizens think of them. They simply couldn’t care less how society, as a whole, might strangercontemplate their actions.” Albert Camus ended his novel, The Stranger, with “With death so near, Mother must have felt like someone on the brink of freedom, ready to start life all over again. No one, no one in the world had any right to weep for her. And I, too, felt ready to start life all over again. It was as if that great rush of Anger had washed me clean, emptied me of hope, and, gazing up at the dark sky spangled with its signs and stars, for the first time, the first, I laid my heart open to the benign indifference of the universe. To feel it so like myself, indeed, so brotherly, made me realize that I’d been happy, and that I was happy still. For all to be accomplished, for me to feel less lonely, all that remained to hope was that on the day of my execution there should be a huge crowd of spectators and that they should greet me with howls of execration.”

Mary Mueller Shutan wrote, “One of the most common experiences on the spiritual path is a sensation of isolation and loneliness. This experience of isolation grows larger the more awakened we are, and can be illusory or a real experience based on having experiences and understandings that not many other people in the world have.”

Jim Tolles, on the other hand wrote, “One of the many feelings that many people who are waking up on the spiritual path have is the sense of being alone. It’s one of the many tricks of the ego, which considers itself a separate entity. It’s one of those funny aspects of waking up that there’s still this quality of being half asleep. So you get it. And you don’t buddhaget it at the same time. You feel connected to everything and everyone, but you feel isolated and completely on your own.”

Mary Pranzatelli posted on Facebook, “It hurts to feel separate. We are wired to seek connection and belonging—to feel like we are part of something larger than ourselves. They say it takes a village to raise a child, but I believe it also takes one to sustain an adult. We were not built to live in isolation, hidden behind apartment doors, phone screens, and dead eyes. We thrive when we feel like part of a tribe, when the people we share space with become part of ‘us,’ not ‘them.'” ~Lori Deschene

For the ego to consider itself separate from everything else is very disempowering. Compared to the enormity of the universe, I am weaker than a kitten. But, if I am one with the universe, I am all-powerful. To unite with the All, is to lose oneself, in a sense, or to yinyang.jpglose the ego. But, united with the All, one is again Alone.

Separateness and/or unity. Are these things opposites? Or are they one way of seeing the same thing? To truly unite, one loses one’s individual identity but, once that union has taken place, there is no Other.


The Adversarial System

When I was a child, I saw legal dramas on TV. What I heard over and over from these dramas was a rather pious pronouncement about the right of the accused to legal representation. Well, (DUH) of course people have the right to counsel. But how far is a lawyer supposed to go in defending his client? The message I got from these shows was as far as it takes. In other words, a lawyer was supposed to do whatever it took to defend a client even if justice wasn’t ultimately served. This obligation of the lawyer was like a categorical imperative.

townwopityI saw a movie called Town Without Pity (1961) about a teenage girl in a small town in Germany who was raped by American soldiers. The town is outraged and demands justice. The American military insists on trying the case according to military protocol. They would try it in closed chambers but the townspeople insisted on a public trial so they would be assured that justice was done. The lawyer picked to defend these men (Kirk Douglas) tried to talk the townsfolk out of the public trial. He did this out of “kindness” to the victim. He didn’t think she could take what he would “have to” do to her in defending his clients. He cared about the victim, you see. But he would still hurt an innocent girl if that’s what it took to defend his clients. The gist of the message the movie articulated was that the harm the lawyer’s very aggressive defense which involved dirtying up an innocent girl was really the town’s fault, not the lawyer’s. His duty to his clients was absolute.

The United States has what is called “an adversarial system.” The theory is that if both sides fight as hard as they can, the result will somehow be the best of each side. Very dialectical. As Hegel said, “Thesis. Antithesis. Synthesis.” The two opposite forces, thesis and antithesis, fight it out and the result is something new, different from either of these forces but better. You can also visualize it like a man and a woman producing a child. It’s a very elegant concept and it seems to follow nature. An adversarial system seems appropriate for the United States. Our whole government is based on checks and balances. Nobody is expected to be all wise or all honest or benevolent. Each side is expected to be biased. But, through the struggle of partisan opposites, a wise or benevolent outcome is expected. The three branches of the Federal government struggle with each other. Also, the states struggle with the Feds over power.  All have limited power and nobody has total power. It comes from a mistrust of what people could do when fully in charge. “Power corrupts. Absolute power corrupts absolutely.” Rather than assume people can really be impartial, two sides are allowed to be as biased as they want, relying on the dialectical process to sort out the truth. The judge acts like a referee to make sure the correct procedure is carried out but he is the one person assumed to be impartial.

Not every country uses the adversarial system. France, for example, has what is called “an inquisitorial system.” There, the forces of justice are expected to be impartial and fair. Under an inquisitorial system, all the officers of the court work together instead of against each other. They are supposed to look for evidence both for and against the accused. However, unlike in the adversarial system, the defendant is presumed to be guilty until proven innocent. I have heard that the inquisitorial courts are more lenient if the accused admits to his crime. This kind of reminds me of plea bargaining which looks like the inquisitorial method getting in through the back door.

In the adversarial system, the standard is “better acquit ten guilty men than convict one innocent one.” Sometimes it seems our courts are leaning way over backwards to protect the rights of the accused and to make sure he has a fair trial. That’s not always due to idealism on the part of the prosecutor. It’s also a way of preventing an appeal based on any kind of flaw found in the procedure enabling a defendant to overturn a conviction. When Riccardo Ramirez (the Night Stalker) was tried, he insisted on picking two defense attorneys that were very incompetent.  Since the evidence clearly proved his guilt overwhelmingly, the only way he could get out would be if he didn’t have a fair trial. The prosecutor took the responsibility of making sure his trial was fair since, even though he picked his own attorneys, the defendant wasn’t responsible for inadequate defense.

The inquisitorial system seems a lot more efficient. Our adversarial system is so costly that, even though it tries harder to be fair, the poor can still get the short end of the stick through inability to afford a good attorney. Legal Aid is supposed to provide a defense for the impoverished accused but they are notoriously inadequate due to lack of incentive and too much work. The adversarial system is like capitalism. The ones who have the most money and who pursue victory most aggressively are the winners here as in the rest of the economy. Who says justice is blind?

devilsadvocateAnother movie about the court system, The Devil’s Advocate, was made in 1997, a good time later than Town Without Pity. This movie turns a more critical look at the lawyer who will do anything to win. Like in the other, a girl is also accusing a man (this time a teacher) of molesting her. Although the girl is a lot younger than the one in Town Without Pity, Kevin Lomax (Keanu Reeves) manages to slut-shame her by exposing innocent reaching out in a humiliating manner. He wins the case and his client goes on to murder another little girl. Mr. Lomax’s no-holds-barred scorched earth path to victory is shown as evil, leading to the death of his wife and bondage to the devil, himself. In the end, he changes his direction and withdraws from the case, putting himself in danger of being disbarred. This is the “right” choice but disbarment seems like a pretty extreme alternative to belonging to the devil’s team.

bostonlegUltimately, the law decides how far an attorney is allowed to go in order to win his case. For example, an attorney isn’t allowed to suborn perjury. That means, he may not put a witness on the stand knowing he is going to lie. Of course, lawyers get around that by not asking certain questions while preparing the case. As one lawyer in Law & Order: SVU said, “I don’t have to know what really happened.” Raising reasonable doubt is sufficient to prevent a conviction. In Boston Legal, the lawyers regularly employ what they call “Plan B.” They raise enough suspicion on another person to cause reasonable doubt of their client’s guilt.

While some lawyers twist the law to suit their purpose and some defendants game the system, others are railroaded into prisons for profit with little representation. These prisons are often nothing more than legalized slavery. It’s rather amazing how earnestly people try to find a fair system while it remains devilishly elusive. We might as well try cases by tossing a coin. The results are just as random.


trumpWe know what “White Supremacy” or “Male Supremacy” means. It’s about power, relative power, power-over. Our society is hierarchical, despite frequent declarations that we are or want to be egalitarian. The main religion in the western world is Christianity which preaches agape love, humility, brotherhood (or sisterhood) and cooperation. Since these values are not and have never been prevalent in the Christian world, the way Christianity has been practiced is far from those actual ideals.

loveoneanotherWhile our society is competitive and hierarchical, it’s generally recognized that most people are a complex mix of traits that embrace both the combative qualities that society practices and the inclusive ones that Christianity says we should be practicing.

The relatively few of us who live almost exclusively in the former group of traits are stigmatized with names like “psychopath” or “narcissist” or just “Cluster B.” There has been a lot of discussion about whether Cluster Bs are “disordered,” an extreme end of a normal spectrum or, gasp, a superior group which heralds the next evolutionary stage for mankind.

supermanThere is no doubting that a lot of attention is being paid to trying to be the most high-functioning, the most powerful and superior, dare we say it? The most grandiose version of ourselves that we can manage. That ideal is exemplified in the movie, Limitless. But it is sought in real life through biohacking, Nootropics, and eugenics (see, Grandiosity, Part 2).

nwocartoonThere is a lot of talk about the 1% who lord it over the rest of us, the 99%. Our society has fluctuated between degrees of relative equality. During the Eisenhower years, when the rich were taxed up to 90% of their income, the middle class in America flourished. Society has moved to the right over the past 30 years or so. Many believe we are heading for one-world fascism. The economic globalism of neoliberalism (what a misnomer) suggests that such an outcome is very possible. In fact, in lieu of vigorous opposition, it seem inevitable. People refer to it as the New World Order. Politicians sometimes even use this term with a positive spin. But many aren’t buying it. They see it as the final outcome of corporate supremacy.

nobullyIs psychopathy an advantage in this kind of world? Suzanne Sadedin, Ph.D. in evolutionary biology; B.A. in psychology, answering in Quora, said, of the evolutionary advantage, “…the more psychopaths you have in a society, the less beneficial psychopathy becomes. Psychopathy is only advantageous when there are nice victims available; two psychopaths cannot benefit by exploiting one another, but normal people build lasting cooperative relationships that are ultimately more productive for them. And the more psychopaths there are around, the less trusting everyone will be, making it harder for snakesinsuitspsychopaths to exploit the diminishing pool of potential victims.” But she also pointed out that psychopaths who avoid being labeled and who work in the corporate world, can be quite successful playing the hierarchical game. With fewer emotional hang-ups, the ability to camouflage themselves, such psychopaths can be eminently successful. I would add that this also holds true for life in the military or other hierarchical structures.

But some of us love freedom even more than power and would flaunt the rules. I think such psychopaths could become exquisite targets of a brave new One World Order.   There has been a stunningly honest discussion of psychopathy on the internet by self-identified maskbeautypsychopaths. Many of us are clever enough to hide our true identities. Others, like myself, have nothing to lose, being retired. And some, like M.E. Thomas, and James Fallon, are successful enough that they can be safe in their public identities.

In any case, it looks like we are going to be on our own for the foreseeable future. That goes for NTs as well as psychopaths. It’s not for nothing that the article listed in my links, Adaptive Evolution, is full of pop-up adds for Bulletproof products.


Self-Esteem or Sacrifice

The People’s Temple
through two people’s eyes

aynrandI have been reading Ayn Rand for years. I responded differently to every reading. One of the major philosophical ideas in her books was a challenge to the ethics of altruism. Was it possible that we are not ethically required to care for the needs of others? Is “selfishness” really a virtue as she said? There was something very refreshing and liberating about this idea, especially for a psychopath. At first reading of Atlas Shrugged, I adopted her philosophy and the politics of Libertarianism that went with it.

As I said, each reading led to a different response (a sign of a good book). Over years, I found more and more flaws in the politics of Libertarianism which I exposed in my latest critique Social Darwinism. Reading about The People’s Temple, however, made me think twice about discarding all of Rand’s ethical thinking. The ethics experienced in this organization informed me of the importance of individual self-love and demonstrated the way altruism can be toxic.

In reading Jeannie Mills‘ book, Six Years With God, about her experiences in Jim Jones’ myrtles.jpgPeople’s Temple, I am torn with feelings that alternate between pity and disgust. How do people get to the point of letting a crazy person dictate their every move? How do they bring themselves to ignore the very dictates of their own conscience in order to follow a course which they, themselves, recognize as folly? It struck me all at once: These are people who have lost their self-esteem. They magnified Jim Jones into a god who could “protect them” from the bomb, cure them of cancer and give their lives meaning. And they saw themselves as tiny and insignificant beings who depended on Jones for everything.

One of Jones’ tools was an ethic of self-sacrifice. People who accept that ethic as their highest value don’t permit themselves to demand any rights for themselves. If anyone dared to make any demands for his/her personal happiness, Jones described the plight of people who were poorer. How dare they ask for something for their own child when other children were without? Once someone has given up his/her right to anything for his/herself, anything can be taken from him/her. Jones made everyone work around the 6yearsclock for his “cause,” they had to tithe 25% of their income, wear thrift store clothing and not buy Christmas presents for their kids. (They donated $16 per child to a committee which choose presents for everyone according to their age and gender and Jim Jones gave all the presents, himself.) Parents weren’t allowed to make important decisions concerning their own kids. Young people were pressured into living in communes where conditions were substandard so that they could donate more money to the Church.

Quality of life wasn’t all that they sacrificed. Their very sense of reality was forfeited when Jones used the temple to act out his own sexual fantasies. he forced everyone to “admit” to being gay or lesbian. He was the only straight man in the Church and he would have sex with church women under the guise of therapy.

Life, sanity and even ethics were sacrificed. Jeannie often did things she knew were wrong such as turning a family out of her house after Jones had brought them to California from Philadelphia. On Jones’ orders, she refused to even give the family money to make a phone call. The harsh edict was given because this family had the balls to disagree with Jones. Although they were very polite and respectful in their disagreement, Jones called them “ingrates.” Obviously, he didn’t think anyone who had accepted any help from him at all had a right to his/her own mind. But the family members hadn’t given up their self-esteem.

Jeannie Mills was a very warmhearted, giving person who would open her home to people at the drop of a hat. The Church gave her many opportunities to share with many families and children. Her generosity came our of genuine love for people rather than a grim belief in self-sacrifice. But she accepted the ethical imperative of self-sacrifice with the implication that not only her needs but also her conscience just didn’t count.

Another of Jones’ victims who accepted self-sacrifice as a noble value was Deborah Layton, Seductive Poison, 1998, Anchor. Unlike Jeannie Mills, she actually went to Jonestown in Guyana and experienced first hand the severe hardships that existed there. deborahStruggling to accept the unacceptable, she reasoned with herself, “I thought of Mao’s cultural revolution. It was hard on the people at first, but over time they grew accustomed to their lives of selflessness. I had learned that this was the only way to grow altruistic. Monks in Tibet, priests in monasteries, nuns in convents, the citizens of Uncle Fidel’s Cuba, they all gave up comforts and became selfless. It was a comfort to think that pain was necessary for the greater good of mankind.”

Upon her arrival at Jonestown, a greeting committee divested everyone of all their personal possessions and gave them each a standard package of necessities.

jonestownNevertheless, Deborah retained a certain innocence throughout her ordeal. She was very young and naive when she joined the Church. Her naivety allowed her to go on believing many of Jones’ lies long after many others recognized the folly of their continued loyalty to the Church. For example, when Jones, who preached celibacy for all Church members put the moves on her, she actually believed he was doing it for her own good, as he claimed, and apologized sincerely for making him do it. Still, with her innocence, she also acquired a certain cynicism. She helped the Church deceive the public in many areas and justified it on the grounds that the ends justified the means. She also snitched on a friend to save herself. But in spite of it, her book conveys a greater feeling of purity than did Jeannie’s. Jeannie was far more aware of how rotten and corrupt the Church was. She continued to play Jones’ games anyway until she finally was able to say “enough.”

apatheticJeannie Mills and her family were spared the Hell that was Jonestown. Debbie Layton went to Jonestown expecting a paradise on earth. Her account of life there makes fascinating reading. It compares with accounts I have read of concentration camps. Shocked nonacceptance is followed by a change in consciousness in which the camp becomes reality as the new inmate learns to adjust and survive. Debbie’s first glance at the faces of the people already there told her what a mistake it had been to come. The faces all had expressions of hopelessness. Everywhere, people were apathetic and guarded. They worked under the watch of armed guards. And yet, unlike most of the people there, Debbie was able to escape and tell her tale.

The story of Deborah’s escape is a hair-raising tale of suspense that is an epic in itself. Once safe in the US, she had to go through a period of adjustment learning how to live in a less toxic environment than the one she had come out of. Jeannie Mills was mysteriously killed but her book remains as testimony to how warped life can become.

Sex and the Psychopath

sexsellsWe have the reputation already. Is it deserved? Of course, our whole society is pretty sex-obsessed. Just turn on the media. Most of the people you see are attractive. Women can reveal a lot more than they used to and we consumers are now free to follow suit in our fashion choices. That pleases me as I’ve never liked the Puritanical mind-set.
Psychopaths are criticized for being emotionally detached during sex. As if sex should always be about sharing one’s soul with another. If can be of course. And there is intimacy in every sex act but it’s very nature. But sex can be many things. It can just be fun.

mixedmessageOur society is rather schizo about sex. On the one hand, the prim and proper rules of propriety and “misconduct” can still harm a political career if violated. But, at the same time, most folks are titillated and fascinated. This kind of mixed message probably makes sex even more alluring. According to society, sex was something men wanted and women withheld. If we “gave” it, we were supposed to get something worthwhile, a good meal, presents, even, or, the jackpot: a proposal. Of course, this is really the dynamic of prostitution. Nevertheless, prostitutes were held in the lowest esteem. Was it because it exposed the truth about sexual relations between men and women or was it because prostitutes “gave it up” too cheaply? They traded their power for a few venal rewards and gave up their exalted role as Madonnas, mothers of their sons.

whatI had sexual fantasies years before I even knew what they were. I only knew some thoughts felt really pleasurable and a strange substance would appear in my vagina. I still didn’t know it was about sex. Amazing! I didn’t even masturbate. When I first started actually dating, I was dismayed to find myself unmoved, even disgusted by necking experiences I had with a boy who should have turned me on, according to my ignorant belief system. He kissed with his mouth open, didn’t he? What was the matter with me? I spent two important years (between the ages of 13 and 15) in the nut house. That enabled me to speak with other women who were older and more experienced. I took it all in but still remained naive until I had my own experiences.

cruisingI decided virginity was something one was best free of, the earlier the better. So, before the 16th birthday, I went to the Village looking for someone to deflower me. Not only would that initiate me into carnal knowledge, but it would also allow me to meet beatniks. I did it but it wasn’t all I had hoped for. Since I was young and nubile, I had lots of offers from men. I experimented with little success. Was this all there was?

submissionEverything changed at the age of 17 when I stumbled upon a sexual sadist and found out I was a masochist. Now I understood all those feelings and was able to satisfy them. I saw the sadist off and on over the next few years. I didn’t really trust him or feel safe with him which was probably part of the attraction. I’m pretty sure he was a psychopath. I liked the emotional detachment he had during the sex act. Freedom from “all that emotional chow-chow,” as Samantha called it in Sex and the City, set me free.

Apart from him, I sought partners using the sex ads that existed in certain publications which I discovered reading the box, The Velvet Underground, a “disapproving,” expose type book. For security, I did it with a girlfriend. My true liberation didn’t come until a like-minded man and I started an actual above-ground society for sadomasochists. I found a “Master” and indulged in parties where kinkiness was the order of the day.

When that relationship ended, I expanded my repertoire to include women and dominance. I didn’t know my sexuality had anything in common with psychopathy until I found and talked to others of my kind. So many psychopaths had a freedom and variable sexual capacity that matched my own.

victoriaWhen we are discussed by others, a lot of my own hard-won was confirmed. The tone of most discussions by third parties is pretty disapproving. According to them, we are heart-breakers due to our promiscuity and lack of emotional commitment. Most of this writing shows concern no for the psychopath but for our “victims.” When our relationships go south, it’s our fault, apparently.  The articles confirm that we are usually great lovers and have something that makes others want to hold on to us.

We don’t have lovers, it seems, or even partners. Only victims. We don’t like sex so much. We like power. It doesn’t seem to ever occur to the author, Seth Meyers , Psy.D., that we might actually find our sex partners interesting. After all, we 728px-Identify-a-Psychopath-Step-10battle boredom all the time and getting to know another human being is an experience. Although we are notorious for changing partners often (nothing more to learn?), some of us have long-term relationships and even marriages.

Decision Making Confidence judges us even more harshly. Referring to Cleckley, the article states that for us “there are none of the ’emotional concomitants and the complex potentialities that make adult love relations an experience so thrilling and indescribable.'” Wah!

728px-Identify-a-Psychopath-Step-9Another article promise to list five reasons why we’re so go in bed. They are.

  1. We are master seducers
  2. We require high levels of stimulation
  3. We are shameless
  4. We want to get the dirt on you
  5. We want to turn it on so we can eventually turn it off

It isn’t so surprising that this article comes from a website called Psychopathy Awareness which is one of the many anti-psychopath sites the web is so rich in.

guiltyWhen I read in Thomas Sheridan’s book, Puzzling People, that psychopaths have a higher level of testosterone than others, I took it with a grain of salt as I do other statements that aren’t otherwise confirmed by more reliable sources. However, I have found corroboration of this interesting fact. Both men and women are blessed with this hormone which is known for enhancing sexuality. Of course, Love.Fraud would have to make this sound like a negative. “Testosterone is a hormone associated with aggression, motivation and drive, especially sex drive. Men have more testosterone than women, and young men have twice the level of testosterone as older men. Testosterone is elevated in all psychopaths, both male and female.” It is the opposite of Oxytocin, the neurotransmitter of love. Our unfortunate victims are full of Oxytocin making them love us while we don’t love them.

This reminds me of a famous quote someone said. “If there were no devil, mankind would have invented one.”


Free to Choose

Dr. Lector amused himself—he has extensive internal resources and can entertain himself for years at a time. His thoughts were no more bound by fear or kindness than Milton’s were by physics. He was free in his head.

pinocchio In Pinocchio, a good fairy gave Jiminy Cricket the job of being the conscience to a wooden puppet. At the same time, she gave the puppet the ability to move at will. Pinocchio didn’t know what was right or wrong. Jiminy was there to guide him. But Pinocchio was free, irrespective of the cricket, to choose his course of action. He often ignored his “conscience” and got into trouble. Jiminy and the fairy rescued him. But he learned more from his mistakes than from Jiminy.

jminyWhat is “conscience?” My Google search defined it as, “an inner feeling or voice viewed as acting as a guide to the rightness or wrongness of one’s behavior.” Several other definitions always include the word “feeling.” Most of them then follow this with the concept of guilt. Merriam-Webster defined it as “the part of the mind that makes you aware of your actions as being either morally right or wrong. : a feeling that something you have done is morally wrong … “ Thus “conscience” seems to be inseparable from the “feeling of guilt.” Wikipedia defines “guilt” as “Guilt may refer to: Guilt (emotion), an emotion that occurs when a person believes that they have violated a moral standard that they themselves believe in … “ Of course, there’s the legal definition which isn’t about feelings. But conscience and guilt seem to be closely bound together by feeling. When people all accept one philosophy, such as Christianity, as the Truth, guilt and conscience reinforce that philosophy. Today’s world is a smorgasbord of philosophies and religions, therefore, it is problematic where a conscience is supposed to lead one. I guess people are expected to derive their conscience from inner values. So one man’s conscience may conflict radically with that of another man. For example, Officer Wilson, the cop in Missouri who shot an unarmed teenager says his conscience is clear. Who can argue with that as everyone’s conscience is his own, individual creation. Conscience can justify any act, no matter how heinous.

Conscience makes cowards of us all. Does this explain the fearlessness of the psychopath?

Although conscience is no longer uniform, there is a strange assumption most people seem to have that you must have a conscience to be a good person. Those without a conscience are thought to be “bad.” What makes people “good” is the feeling of guilt they have if they do something that violates their conscience. That seems to go along with the idea that only punishment can make people “good.”

Jay Jones, in his excellent blog, Psychopathy Awareness, said of conscience:

“Much is written about psychopaths lacking a conscience, with works like Without Conscience by Dr Robert Hare, and such an opinion is wide spread by experts and laymen alike. In truth though, these people fail to understand the nature of the conscience and to remove their own subjectiveness when analyzing the issue. Psychopaths do have a conscience, it is merely completely personal and relates only to personal perspectives and standards. This is in contrast to “normal” people in this time and setting who’s conscience is a reflection of societal perspectives and standards.”

Psychopaths are naturally immune to the social conditioning that people learn by, or rather are indoctrinated into at an early age. The job of the conscience is to check the self- analyzing current behaviors, emotions and thinking against the long term decided perspectives and standards of the individual. Where a typical person learns what their society and care givers consider to be truths and standards in their environment, and integrates this into their own conscience, a psychopath doesn’t take on what others have told them is truth and socially acceptable, they make their mind up based on their own experiences and perspective.

Some people say that conscience is really driven by empathy which Merriam-Webster define as “the feeling that you understand and share another person’s experiences and emotions : the ability to share someone else’s feelings …” This takes it into the realm of intuition. There is no real way to objectively determine whether someone’s intuition is correct of not. There is definitely a notion that empathy makes someone a better person.

Kevin Dutton visiting a psychopath in a secure unit. After Dr. Dutton says the difference between them is he is out there and the psychopath is locked up, the psychopath says, “There’s only one difference between you and me. Honesty. Bottle. I want it. I go for it. You want it. You don’t.

“You’re scared, Kev. Scared. You’re scared of everything. I can see it in your eyes. Scared of the consequences. Scared of getting caught. Scared of what they’ll think. You’re scared of what they’ll do to you when they come knocking at your door. You’re scared of me.

“I mean, look at you. You’re right. You’re out there. I’m in here. But who’s free, Kev? I mean, really free? You or me? Think about that tonight. Where are the real bars, Kev? Out there” — he points at the window — “or in here?” (He reaches forward ever so lightly, touches my left temple.)

Split-Second Persuasion by Kevin Dutton, Ph.D

Psychopaths are widely hated because we do not have a conscience, guilt-feelings or empathy. In short, we are deficient in the ability to connect with other people. We are driven more by our rational brain, Most psychopaths learn to emulate feelings we don’t have in order to fit in. M.E. Thomas said she sometimes felt like a character in the movie, Bladerunner, having to watch her step every minute not to give herself away. Most people think psychopaths are dangerous preditors. Robert Hare calls us “social preditors.” The public associates us with serial killers although only a small number of psychopaths ever kill anyone. We can manipulate people, often as a game of power. It can give one a heady feeling to know one is calling the shots outside of other people’s awareness. This gives one a powerful experience of grandiosity. Psychopaths have the reputation of using our cunning only to hurt people. Sam Vaknin said, on the contrary, “The vast majority of psychopaths, like an iceberg, are underwater, and like an iceberg, they are inert.” But not having a conscience, that is, a feeling that one must act a certain way does not force a psychopath to do wrong. A psychopath’s lack of conscience gives us a choice. One can objectively know right from wrong. In fact, the law presumes that psychopaths know right from wrong objectively which is why we are held responsible for crimes we commit. Knowing what is right and what is wrong can function as a guide just as effectively as a conscience. Not needing to beat oneself up with guilt feelings, really causes a psychopath to deserve more credit for doing right. A free choice is automatically a moral choice. But the fact that psychopaths can chose to do wrong scares people. Psychologist, Martha Stout, wrote a book called The Sociopath Next Door. The book has an introduction about how “terrible” it is to be without a conscience. A well-delivered reading of this essay is on YouTube. How do they know what choice psychopaths will make? There is such a thing as a “pro social” psychopath. James Fallon is one as well as others living useful, productive lives in their chosen profession. They can work as surgeons, ball players, lawyers or a myriad other group of occupations which require single-minded focus and a mind not clouded by emotion.

Antisocial Personality Disorder

In recent years, the Diagnostic Statistical Manual has grown from a slim volume to an enormous tomb and with it’s width, it’s influence also grew until it was the size of a bully kicking the other kids off the playground. Scholars of psychology and psychiatry met regularly to decide what would go into it. Dr. Hervey Cleckley and Dr. Robert Hare developed the concept of psychopathy. Dr. Hare’s checklist is the acknowledged defining and diagnostic tool for what “psychopathy” means. But a powerful group refused to accept it. They found concepts such as “lack of empathy” too subjective and considered a more “scientific” concept based more strictly on overt behavior. Therefore, they replaced psychopathy with the “antisocial personality disorder.” In embracing this term, psychology lost the depth and subtlety that was part of psychopathy. It became an index of criminality. A criminal could be diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder even if he felt empathy and guilt. Feelings were just too damned unscientific. You can’t even measure them, for goodness sake. However, psychopaths’ brains have distinct differences from normal ones. The frontal orbital cortex which is fed impulses through the amygdala, often appears dark and inactive when a psychopath is subjected to a PET brain scan. This characteristic isn’t part of the ASPD diagnostic criteria. Sounds very scientific to me but what do I know. I’m only a lowly layman. So diagnosed psychopaths like M.E. Thomas couldn’t have ASPD since she is not a criminal. Hail science! Since psychopathy isn’t listed in the DSM as a personality disorder, the real verdict of psychiatry is that psychopathy isn’t a disorder. Robert Hare has stated this specifically. “Psychopaths are not disordered. They have no deficit.” Well that’s that.

That a small minority of human beings literally have no conscience was and is a bitter pill for our society to swallow. Martha Stout

Speaking Personally

Originally a self-diagnosed psychopath, I have since been diagnosed ASPD by a DSM-infested team of shrinks. (The DSM doesn’t use the word “psychopathy” but prefer the behaviorist “anti-social personality disorder.”) As Sam Vaknin said, the field of psychology has promise but only if it is approached as a philosophy. Professionals such as Kevin Dutton, James Fallon and even Robert Hare are A-OK in my book. Most of them, not so much. I Don’t Suffer from Psychopathy.

To the Haters

I wrote the comment on someone’s blog that had a revolting number of hostile comments after it, all signed “anomynous” and all denying the blogger is a “real” psychopath:

I notice most of the hostile comments here are labeled “anonymous.” Seems like you haters can dish it out but not take it. I also find it interesting that many people like to deny the psychopathy of anyone who proclaims him/herself as a psychopath even when they’ve been diagnosed. None of these anonymous nay sayers are able to claim professional credentials but still seem to think they are more qualified than a professional to contradict his/her professional opinion. At the same time, people are highly prone to call people “psychopaths” when they have done something the hater doesn’t like.

I challenge every anonymous poster to identify him/herself or shut the fuck up.



Damned psychiatrists! We used to have personalities. Now we notcrazyhave personality disorders.

Has psychiatry medicalized all of life? In the 60’s, we asked each other what astrological sign we were. Now, it’s what kind of personality disorder. It’s de rigueur to have a diagnosis by a certified, bonified psychiatrist. Self-diagnosed is a term of derision. It means someone is being pretentious, a wannabe. This puts the psychiatric profession in a position of power. Everyone has a diagnosis. Even me. But my diagnosis is absurd. It is paranoid schizophrenia. Ha! If I was a schiz, I would hallucinate and have delusions. I never experienced either. And, if they really believed I suffered from this serious, diabilitating psychiatric disease, why didn’t they treat me for it. I spent two years (between the ages of 13 and 15 in a full-fledged nuthouse but was never offered any anti-psychotic drugs. This hospital offered both insulin and electroshock “therapy” but I was never given either kind. In fact, they even did lobotomies. The lobotomy victims had a ward to themselves. They put one woman who had not been lobotomized on that ward once to get her away from me and my friends who picked on her. Of course, then we could taunt her that she was on the lobotomy ward, Tit for tat. She tried to torment me that I was going to a 700 school. DUH! It was a 700 school because it was in the nuthouse, the same nuthouse she was also in.

I had a good time in the nuthouse, little realizing how they were badmouthing me behind my back until I got my records. I think the most interesting people are the ones who have been in a nuthouse. I still have friends from those days although we are now old. I was shocked by my diagnosis but have since learned that it was customary in those days to diagnose everyone with schizophrenia just as they had, at one time, diagnosed every with dementia praecox. My personal opinion, my self-diagnosis is psychopathy, But my doctors won’t even administer the Hare Checklist to me. Meh. Instead, a student at the Wright Institute diagnosed me as an unspecified personality disorder. We know my personality is disordered but we’re not quite sure how. This institute only recognizes diagnoses that are in the DSM. Instead of psychopathy, they have something called “antisocial personality disorder.” In order to have ASPD, you have do be actively violating the rules of society. I’ve always done that. Right now, even though same sex marriage is allowed, my partner and I are “living in sin” and practicing sado-masochism. Not deviant enough. ASPD generally refers to criminals. Sorry. I don’t need crime. I have Social Security. But I am sorta-kind of “narcissistic.” Meh squared.

In these pages, I will be exploring different psychiatric conditions in my own quirky way.

  • Psychology Blog
  • Lucky Otter’s Haven A Borderline’s musing about Cluster B personality disorders
  • Down the Rabbit Hole. Living with and healing from NPD.
  • Free Associating About Narcissism.
  • 12 Weird Things you Might see a Narcissist Do
  • The making of a covert narcissist. Covert narcissism wasn’t a choice.
  • DSM, Data and Statistical Manual, exercise an inordinate influence on psychology and how we think about people. This article analyses the history as well as current trends. One thing it hasn’t mentioned was the way behaviourism has infiltrated the thinking of those actually writing the manual. Sam Vaknin mused that a psychologist can either strive to be a philosopher or a scientist. Behaviourists think they can establish their scientific credentials by limiting their work to what is observable. Thus, the personality disorder called psychopathy has been dropped in favour of “antisocial personality disorder.” They measure this disorder by the overt antisocial acts someone exhibits. The inner characteristics of psychopathy such as lack of conscience or empathy don’t count with these people. After all, you can’t see a conscience. So people with ASPD can get over it if they mellow and stop breaking so many years. But less behavioristic psychologists such as Michael Stone, say, “Psychopathy is like diamonds. It’s forever.”
  • Narcissist or Psychopath…Both are human preditors. Another spot-on critique of the DSM for removing psychopathy from their ever growing, politically influenced tomb. She puts her finger on the problem by indicting these experts for looking only at behavior and not at the person behind the behavior. Sam Vaknin thought the DSM V might combine psychopathy and narcissism into one disorder. Instead, they continued to discard psychopathy for the much less meaningful “antisocial personality disorder.” Well, it’s their choice to make psychology increasingly less relevant.
  • Crybaby. This story may be triggering.
  • Why Family Scapegoats become Lifelong Victims
  • Why Narcissists and Borderlines are Drawn to Each Other
  • Derealization and depersonalization in NPD and BPD.
  • Grandiose is my Indian name
  • Why No Help For Schizophrenic Girl in Slender Man stabbing. The Jani Foundation is taking great interest in the case.
  • Free to Choose
  • I Don’t Suffer from Psychopathy. I enjoy every moment of it.
  • What’s your opinion on psychopaths. A neurotypical friend of the author gives a balanced answer to that question.
  • Psych Forums. My link is specifically to personality disorders. They have other things there but this is my area of interest.
  • Baby, You’ve Got to go Through the Mill. Something I wrote under the pseudonom of Terry Kolb describing my first masochistic experience.
  • I, Psychopath, Sam Vaknin.
  • Diary of a Narcissist. Sam Vaknin’s Journal
  • Kevin Dutton is an expert who holds a positive opinion about psychopaths.
  • Psychopathic Writings Is there such a thing as a spare time psychopath? Probably not, so I guess I’m a professional one. In the last decade or so researchers and experts have published much new knowledge about psychopaths and psychopathy for the public to learn more about this 1% minority of the world. I think some insider information has been missing from the picture and this is why I have decided to contribute with some of the knowledge that only someone who lives with the condition can provide.
  • James Fallon, a neuroscientist who discovered he is a psychopath.
  • Confessions of a Sociopath by M.E. Thomas
  • Without Conscience, Robert Hare, considered an expert on psychopathy. His checklist is a frequently used diagnostic tool. Unfortunately, the tool is used most frequently in prison. If someone scores high on the psychopathy spectrum, he is denied parole.
  • Frances Farmer. Rich source of information although primarily written to critique Shadowland, the biography of this great rebel.
  • The Jani Foundation created in honor of January Schofield, a girl who was born schizophrenic. She is featured in many You-Tube videos.
  • Slender Chance. The web site for Morgan Geyser who, at 12, attempted murder of a friend under the delusion that an internet meme, The Slender Man, was a real being who could reward her for “sacrificing” her friend by taking her into his mansion in the woods. I got away with attempted murder at 15, Surely she deserves the same consideration.
  • Angie Baby. Cartoon illustrating song about a crazy girl.
  • R.D. Laing, maverick psychiatrist founded Kingsley Hall which provided alternative treatment to schizophrenics.
  • Mental Patients’ Liberation, “You bet your ass we’re paranoid.”
  • Autistics speak for themselves. Exposing “Autism Speaks” as oppressive to people with autism.
  • Smells Like Bullshit, “And yet, Autism Speaks?” an open letter.
  • Professional Victims. There’s a movement of people in recovery from encounters with people who have personality disorders, especially those in Cluster B (borderline, histrionic, narcissistic and psychopathic). Many of these people in recovery are sincerely looking for a healthy outcome. Unfortunately, there is a segment in this movement that is more like a cult than a mileu where people might regain their health. These people are extremely hostile to any of the groups they demonize.


Toxic Stigma

blackhole1Some types of behavior so outrage the popular culture that the very subject matter becomes toxic to the touch, not because of it’s intrinsic harmfulness but because of the extreme stigma attached to it. Among these extreme taboos is incest, pedophilia, and Satanism. The stigma of these things is so deadly, that it has been used historically to contaminate other things that aren’t even part of them.

Reproduction from acts of incest can lead to either good or bad results. Animal breeders often use inbreeding to heighten desirable traits. The problem is negative traits can also be heightened from inbreeding. The ban against incest (among humans) is really more about social issues than physical. People in a family need to keep their roles straight and incest can hopelessly complicate it. Still human beings have indulged in that practice over the years. Royal families have done it deliberately to keep their line pure and powerful. Some such families have been plagued with hemophilia.

scapegoatFor many years, gays were condemned as pedophiles even though most were nothing of the sort. The gay liberation movement had a long upwards struggle to get it through the heads of the ordinary public that gay does not equal child molester.

In the same way, people have believed for years that witches were satanicwitchdevil worshipers. Both witches/pagans and gays have fought so long and hard to separate themselves from these highly stigmatized groups that they feel they are forced to reject these groups to this very day. It’s easy to understand the terror felt by those who fear being painted by the same brush as these tabooed outcasts.

hatevictimEven in prison, pedophiles (short eyes) are fair game for the most vicious attacks. The gay movement won’t allow people who openly advocate sex between adults and children to even march in their parades. Reactions to these people are so adverse, it is easy to forget that some “respectable” thinkers have been advocates. Oscar Wilde, for example, spoke in favor of relationships with boys, something he was personally into. Camille Paglia, who isn’t a pedophile has written sympathetically about it. Of course, we have all heard of NAMBLA, the North American Man/Boy Love  Association. Their voice has been powerfully suppressed. They aren’t allowed to march in Gay Pride parades. Most are in the closet. This video, Chickenhawk gives them a voice that isn’t often heard.

Sex between adults and children is problematic. Even when we acknowledge that children have sexual feelings and are capable of even having consensual relationships with adults, there is a tremendous power discrepancy. How can we know that a child is freely consenting when he or she is dependent on adults for survival? Another problem is the shame associated with so many expressions of sex. A child who is just experiencing these feelings for the first time can have difficulty coming to terms with experiences outside what is acknowledged as the norm. Lack of power and social shame are great barriers to sex between adults and kids being alright.

virtuThere is a group called Virtuous Pedophiles. Not all pedophiles are predators. This organization actually represents people who are born with these forbidden desires and who have resolved not to act on them. Unfortunately, they are afraid to reach out for the help of a therapist. They are afraid of being reported. “Our website is intended to reduce the stigma attached to pedophilia by letting people know that a substantial number of pedophiles DO NOT molest children, and to provide peer support and information about available resources to help virtuous pedophiles remain law-abiding, and lead happy, productive lives.” This teenpedoreminds me of an episode of Law & Order: SVU in which a teenage boy comes in to report he has an attraction to his younger half-brother. He is obviously torn-up inside by this desire he is not acting upon but the cops treated him like a perp. This boy was working with an adult who had a website for pedophiles who wanted to stay celibate. He has pictures of kids for the VPs to masturbate to instead of harming a child. Unfortunately, one of the pictures was one of Stabler’s kids. Stabler promptly beat him up and Fin said he admired Stabler’s restraint! He would have killed him, he said. It’s stunning how certain people are just considered fair game by the virtuous citizens with empathy and a conscience.

dahmerOf course, while some pedophiles have relations with kids that are truly consensual and loving and others abstain from acting on those urges, there are still others who are true predators. Jeffrey Dahmer was not only a predator, he was a serial killer and cannibal. Not all pedophiles are child molesters and not all child molesters are pedophiles. Some are psychopaths, another stigmatized group of people. Of course most psychopaths don’t prey on children and many child molesters aren’t psychopaths. It’s easy to lump them together just as it used to be easy to lump pedophiles with gays.

The American Psychiatric Association’s DSM lists pedophilia as a metal disorder and the Supreme Court concurs. But some others, both experts and pedophiles want pedophilia removed from the DSM just as homosexuality has been removed.

Remember the Blacklist? In the entertainment industry, someone accused of being a Communist or even a “pinko” could be blacklisted and lose his job with no possibility of finding another. Scary times. But Kevin Spacy has been dropped from his House of Cards job with Netflix on the basis of allegations.  He is being investigated by London police. He has not even been legally charged yet, let alone convicted but people have already convicted him in their minds. Hannah Parkinson asks, “Kevin Spacey deserves to be scorned. But can I still watch House of Cards?”

cawWriting my autobiography brought me down a memory lane in which I was an active member of Church of All Worlds, a neo-pagan organization. The publication of this group was a magazine called Green Egg. Isaac Bonewits, well know in the Pagan community as a Druid leader, wrote an article, Enemies of Our Enemies which argued that Pagans and Satanists are too radically different from one and other to allow them to work together. In a nutshell, “Satan,” no matter how one chooses to define him, does come out of a historically hostile tradition, Christianity. Whether one condemns it for being “dualistic” pagendanceor “monotheistic” (worship of only one god almost forces dualism to develop), Satanism doesn’t come from the same tradition as Paganism which is pre-Christian and which was wiped out by Christians. Pagans try to show they are not all about darkness. “Witches are Healers,” read one banner in a Gay Pride march. Some even call themselves “white witches.” At the least, pagans and witches stress the fact that they worship nature and predate the whole mindset of the Abrahamic religions.

bonewitsBonewits’ article tries to plot out a taxonomy of where every pagan and satanic group fits in the philosophical and theological scene. Unfortunately, he used words he made up as if they are accepted terminology. “Mesopagans,”  “Paleopagans,” and “Scientism.” According to Bonewits, MesoPagan religions are those that developed from PaleoPagan or native Pagan religions that were influenced by Monotheistic, dualist or Nontheistic philosophies. These include all synchretic religions including Christo-Paganism, many Afro-Diasporic faiths, such as Voudun, Santeria and Candomble, and Sikhism as well as many occult traditions including Thelema, Freemasonry, Rosicrucianism, Theosophy and Spiritualism and many modern Witchcraft traditions, including many Wiccan denominations. Also, some Satanic traditions could fall into this category.” Witchipedia, Mesopaganism. It seems that these forms of paganism, unlike Neopaganism, are tainted by the influence of Christianity. Somehow, the Neopagans approved by Bonewits, have managed to avoid this taint even though they are the most recently devised religious current of them all.

shunningMr. Bonewits’ solution is simple. “How exactly can we make it clear to Setanists that they are not wanted in our community? As Deborah Lipp puts it, “How do we express our disapproval, and give it clout, without violating their rights?” Her solution: “We do it just as our Pagan ancestors did — by shunning. We don’t have to be respectful or friendly to Satanists. Shunning is ethical and legal, and no one has a civil right to be liked.” I can’t help but be struck with the similarity “shunning” has to the “no contact” solution to “narcissistic and psychopathic abuse.”

satanwantsSatanists insist that a distinction be made between Satanism, a name assumed by Anton Levay in founding his church and “devil worshipers” who are assumed to be, first and foremost, enemies of God. Not all Satanists believe in god. The god they almost universally worship, whether they believe in the supernatural or not, is themselves. The point in which they differ from Pagans is that their god is an “isolate intelligence” separate from the rest of existence. Pagans and most all mystics yearn for a oneness with all things. Satanists reject this oneness. However, to achieve god consciousness, the awareness of being one with all, is, at the same time, the most profound experience of solitude that there is. To be one with everything is to know there is no other. So is there really any difference between isolate intelligence and mystical unity with All?

steleThelema, the religion of Aleister Crowley and OTO seems to somehow bridge the gap between Satanism and Paganism. Adam Rostoker, who belonged to CAW and OTO, believed the bible of CAW, Stranger in a Strange Land espoused Thelema as well as the values CAW found in it. Members of CAW ritually share water, a sacrament in CAW. As the cup is passed,  we tell each other, “Thou art God/Goddess.” The knowledge that we are god(s) is not unique to CAW and OTO. Many New Agers know they are god. Of course, our universal deity is openly acknowledged in OTO. Every man and every woman is a star. “There is no part of me that is not of the gods.” The age of Isis and the age of Osiris has given way to the age of Horus, the crowned and conquering Child.  Grandiosity has come into it’s own.

Gays and Pagans have good reason to guard against once again being tarred by the same iamalonebrush that is still being used on pedophiles and satanists. I’m not trying to find a definitive conclusion about the ultimate moral value of either pedophilia or satanism. I’m just discussing the relationships between these highly stigmatized groups and other disrespected groups that are busily shunning them.

Mystics yearn to the return to their original state of Oneness with the Universe but how can we if any one of us is demonized? There are stigmas large and small. When will we put down the heavy load of judgement and accept each other as a star.